The Acrostic poem?

One of the assignments! Is to write a poem, an acrostic poem.

What is the poem all about? This type of poems is also known as name poem.

An example might help us to understand this poem better.

Stephanie
Sweet
Thoughtful
Easy to get along with
Pretty
Has a heart
Agreeable
Nice
In stoppable
Especially cool

I'll post mine when it's done. It's not easy though as I'm very analytical and slow. :p

p/s: ilysm.

It's my RAYA story (part1)

The days went well. We went to my beloved one's place on the first day. It happens that he is my relative. The second day, I went out with my beloved cousin, Kak Nana. The third day we went to Pulau Gusong Melanta, to visit my grandma's cemetery. And the last day was filled with my baby cousin's feast.

THE FIRST DAY!
I was very excited and nervous. Hehe. I was wearing a turqoise 'baju kurung' with a light brown shawl. Entering his house making me very nervous and I could see his brothers and sisters here and there, peeking through the doors and curtains. I was just waiting for him very patiently and there he was, shaking hands with my parents, and my brothers. My sister told me he looked at me once in a while and it made me more jumpyyyyyy!

Then, I followed my dad to the outside of the house to look into something with my sister. I entered his house and I could see him laughing with his brothers, looking at me very happily. I was over joyful and when I checked my phone, there was a message from him.

him: Huhu...
me: Huhu?
him: seganlah (I feel shy)
me: biasalah tu... (Oh, it's normal, don't be!)
him: Sweet kann? :)
me: *blushing* :)

This part one is only about him (my arranged-partner)

p/s: It's not really arranged. We kinda love each other. Awwh do we? YES WE DO, for sure.

Chris Medina's, 'What are words' and the movie, '7 lagu'

Been listening to Chris Medina's all day long, it means a lot to many people all over the world. Well, love is very universal. Here is the lyrics of the haunting song!

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I’ll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you’ll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don’t mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they’re only for good times
Then they don’t
When it’s love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we’re gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I’m meant to be where I am
And I’m gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight

And I’m gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

I’m forever keeping my angel close

I wanted to put myself in Medina's shoes but I think, I've been into both characters. The first one is the one who loving, sacrifying and helping, while the other one is being helped, waited and loved. 

But now, I'm Chris Medina. I am all here for you, loving you whole-heartedly and without doubt at my peak moment of loving, I know it's worth of waiting. But you are very questionable and everything is like mystery. You make many craving for you. Been wanting to stop doing that, to be frank. Working on it apparently and dude! It's a tough job though! If stop loving someone is the best solution, many would do the same right? :)

Becauseeeeeeee, at the end, believe me, it's us alone with our Al-Mighty and the persons we love will be there assisting, but the 100% effort are really coming from us. So, I've decided, being rationale and logical in making judgments, I want to put myself into the priority before him. :) Dear You, I hope that you will be spending the rest of your life in blessed experience and hope that you'll be choosing the very right path along the way. After all, we are buddies right? :)

Ahh stop with me! It's Chris Medina's moment! He's sent an angel and he appreciates her the wise guy should do always. Beauty and richness are always temporary and sanity is very vital in loving a person. Being sane, he makes other people relieved as well. It seems that he's solving a jigsaw puzzle consistently slowly. I'm hoping that justice is on them forever. May they both are blessed and may their hearts are full with love and full commitments.

Agaaaaaaaaaaaain people, the song could bring not only a definition of a man and a woman loving each other but also other types of relationships. It could be between friends, siblings and others. Taking my experience as an example, in some days, sometimes I overlook my friends' roles and contributions in making me alive well and words are meant to be said truly and once we promise a thing, we should keep it very well. I don't want to neglect my friends, but I am confident that they understand that I need my own space and time, to keep things organized and okay. :) ILYSM, dear girlfriends!

Chris Medina performing 'What are Words' ^^ 

Aaha! The next one is the drama by Khabir Bathia, '7 lagu'. Love can be brutal and violent sometimes. That is what depicted in the drama. The character acted out by Farid Kamil is willing to kill his contributing persons in life to get together. This is not gooooood! We must not do violence ti achieve what we want. however, there are better explanations for this drama or the character. It has got to do with his mental statement. He is mentally ill and he's not brought up properly. He is growing up seeing many bad things happening all the way and his satisfaction is fulfilled when he's with the girl he loves. 

Studying the character, I do believe in the community, we have to help each others and we have to stop brainless judgments and taking other people for granted. We should have our own responsibilities towards each other in our society. For example, we should use less plastic bags when go shopping and we should help the blind crossing the roads. These kinds of awareness would promote voluntary works, just like our Ministry of Youth and Sports are promoting currently.  

By and large, May Allah bless us always. :)

Boyfriend cardigan???

I thought at first, we do have boyfriend cardigan??? and I was like, ouhoho, women are so men-centered???? it was then I realised that it is more to how we perceive things. It's not that there's a gender discrimination sentiment there. :) 

and people, when i comes to discrimination, it is very world-widely discussed and until we, women stop seeing ourselves isolated, people would 'victimise' us. so, the basic thing here is, even without 'boyfriend cardigan', people (men I think?) won't see us women at the level most men think they are at. I mean like, please girls, we are strong enough, more than we think we are! :D 

but but but, we are soft, very easily touched, etc. hey don't think that all the softy things are bad! Them all are our advantages we should be proud of!

hey take a look at this bf cardigan!

Okay, it reminds me most of my friend's story. she has a boyfriend that she's not sure of him loving her. One thing for sure, my cute friend wants to marry him, even not badly. I've been telling my friend, and myself too, that we should not give our 100% mental and emotional attention to guys. 

I am kinda pissed off with the fact that the guy does not appreciate my friend of her willingness in sharing her life with him. She's a nice fellow, and she loves me as well. huh! pissed off really, I hope that the girl would realise someday, err, wait a minute! I think most of girls realise that their boyfriends are not good for them, but because girls being considerate and  soft, we do give chances sometimes. But I really hope my friend will have the courage to divert her feeling far away form the guy or even better, for the guy to be fixed with his feeling and to love my friend whole-heartedly. :) 

ouh as the boyfriend cardigan issue goes on, I feel like having a channel in TV for me to keep talking about women and love. I wanna touch many people's hearts by making them aware of people surrounding them, that most of the time, people who are always be there for us are very special and should be appreciated. 

Women too are special, err, at least my friend is. She is always be there for him. I don't like the fact that the guy has another girlfriend that his parents are not fond of, and him, being realistic, would be leaving the first girlfriend so that he could be with my friend. For the time being, my friend has to wait for him to break them off. ouh please! Even if my friend is veeeeeeeeeeeery willing to wait, don't make her like she's a sort of a toy because she is not! And I know that todays, she is planning something for her own good. She's starting to decide very well now.

Please Mr my-friend's-so-called-bf, don't force my little friend decides on you, because I'm afraid there would be no more 'boyfriend moments' for her. Just don't make some history moreeeeeeee. been wanting to share this with people out there. 

I do not like it when

A girl (Lissa?): Do you love me?

Her boyfriend (Adam?): You know the answer.

Lissa: I don't.

Adam: Stop being childish and stupid and romantic. It does not work from you.

Lissa: Ok, I'm sorry. *sigh

Why Adam could not just please Lissa if it's true that he loves her? Why should him being manly with the answer? And why should Lissa choose to feel sorry for the wrong she hasn't done yet or ever? 

Many of us have the answer. The answers are tickling our minds. It's all about time, lovelies. I know, and you know too. Lissa knows it too. She just has to wait for the right time to hit her and just in splits of seconds, she would do what shouldd be done. To all Lissas out there, don't worry, just make sure that we are not mentally and emotionally burdened with Adams ok? :) 

I remember this song, even though it's got nothing to do with boyfriend cardigan, I'M just LOVIN' IT! 

A jar of hearts, by Christina Perri

In TWO weeks, is it possible to slim down???

Eidul Fitri is just around the corner. I've about less than two weeks to get my body slim which is 'something' hard to get. :(

I have been googling some pictures of The Biggest Loser's contestants for the sake of motivating the other stubborn half of me and convincing 'her' is not that easy, ok!

My all-time fav, the ALI :)

so, basically, these are the things I want to do for Eidul Fitri and I am so going to make this happen! 

1. Drink no flavoured drink!
2. Eat less rice
3. Exercise as frequent as possible
4. 'No supper' rules (Eat before Isya')
5. I'll eat following Sunnah Rasulullah :) 
6. And I'll be as gorgeous as this lady below! :) 

ohohoh I heart u FAZ! :) 

Do you appreciate your grandparents?

Here and there, people would say bad things about you if you neglect your parents. You are as bad as a witch, as bitchy as a Gossip Girl's character and the list goes on and on.

However, do you ever think about grandchild-grandparents relationship??? This is very rare and as the first grandchild in the family from both sides, I think it is important for me to voice out my feelings over this. 

My grandmother from my mother's side is as cunning and funny as 'Grandma Yetta' in the sitcom, 'The Nanny'. 

My grandma would do anything to buy things cheap (It's in the blood! haha)

To begin, last year, my grandmother was attacked! Not by aliens but by the high BP (blood pressure) and the last year scene was not the first time. She's got more than 3 times before and the frequency has made her immobile. Her right arm and right leg are not moving and being an active person, it was awkward at first seeing her lying on the bed more than other normal people do. She also could not utter words perfectly. I sometimes mistakenly understand her words and she even call names we hardly recognize.

Most of the time, I know, she always wants us to be there beside her and it is painful knowing that I am not there with her always. I am far away from her, studying abroad limits our physical contacts. I know the most important thing in relationships is APPRECIATION. Everyone wants to be appreciated and this includes my beautiful grandmother. 

The first half of the first year had me calling her and wanting her to feel my presence but I have changed as the time went by. I avoided her and I very forcefully wanted to push our memories together to the very end of my tiny brain.  It felt like I betrayed my own feeling and I am in denial, wanting the image of her being unhealthy erased and forgotten. Why on earth today I am thinking that I DID THAT TO MY VERY IMPORTANT PERSON IN MY LIFE? If only I would be placed in her shoes, how would I feel? A grandmother needs her grandchild but where was I? Was I not strong emotionally and mentally to handle this? Yes I admit that! But why I rather letting her alone fighting? I should have been giving her moral support and it is an easy task to do! I'm sorry gramma. :(

The cup is for me to pour my love to you, grandma! I heart you.

Until one day, I got involved in a program, having me working with some important people in the country and most of them are older than my parents. A duration of about two months meant a lot to me. I came into a realization that there are no people out there would do anything for me, other than my family members. The thing I am sure is my grandma would sacrifice herself for my own good. If there's a war, she would be in front bench to protect me, without no doubt. 

Today, I want to vow to myself that I would spend more time with my grandma as I know, appreciation is the key in human beings relationships. And people out there, be aware that this also applies to a bf-gf relationship, friend-friend relationship, and others too, just name them all. But still, the statement is general and we sometimes have to avoid some people for good reasons.  

 Just like jigsaw puzzle, the picture won't be perfect if one piece is nowhere to be found. Appreciation is a basic element to complete the bond between a person or a few with the other parties. 

The least knowledge we could get from a new friend.

This is funny I think. I've been knowing this person since I was a child. And I even love this person, very much! But I screwed up last night when I asked him his full name. LOL.

me: Hey love! What is your full name?? I know your name is **** (I know he always wants to be unmentioned)
Him: I don't always say 'I love you' but I know your full name. -__-
me: I'm sorry sayang, I have overlooked this, but your FB's name is ****, so that's it I think! :'( I'm so sorry.
Him: Find it yourself!
me: Ouh puhlease dear, where to go??? ;'(

I just deactivated my FB and I used my sister's to ask our mutual friends (my sister's. his and mine) his real name. And it happened that most of them do not know his real name. We know his name is **** but yeah, it's like I know my friend's name is 'Putri' but I only knew her full name after a while, 'Karisma Dritanti Maulidah Putri'. -__- See my point??! 

I still feel bad though. I am like his beloved one and he is mine too but I DON'T KNOW HIS (my beloved one) NAME??????? I know righttttt. :(

For you, this is my fault and I am sorry for this my pumpkin and people, I want to quote this from my beloved Dad. 'When you meet new people, find and ask as much as knowledge you could, and the least one is their names. It's food for practising PR and your memory.' Binggo girl! You are so screwed up! Your beloved one??? duhh!

J.K. Rowling, Suze Orman, Oprah and ‘Playing for Keeps’

I’m not a big fan of HP series, not even a fan. But respecting the J.K. Rowling for the phenomena she has made brought me to hook my eyes to the TV, the Oprah Winfrey show. I watch the show almost every day, whenever I have power over the remote control. Okay! Back to the J.K. Rowling thingy, she actually has inspired my motive of leading my life. Oh I sound old but that is the reality.

Superb women, J.K. Rowling and Oprah

Quoting her saying from the episode, she once said that ‘Dumbledore in the first novel (Idk the title because once again, I don’t follow HP! L) says to HP, once you see yourself in the mirror, make sure that what you see is YOU! (The dialogue is not exactly like this but yeah, it sounds like this to me, lol!)’ and this has changed my perspective. WHY??? Because Idk how to react to THIS. I mean, who on earth knows what the you means and the YOU brings. Oh yes I forgot Donald Trump might be good in differentiating the two yous, and even Oprah. But not me, at the least I know. 

I felt like crying you know. Sitting on the sofa, in front of the TV, realising there are more to achieve and miss in life. Even I’m not sure of my ambition. At one point, I want to be a politician but the next day, it changes. I don’t have schedules for me to be guided. Some might say that ‘oh yeay! Isn’t it so in that you are independent?’ or ‘ouh it’s cool babe, you lead the way as it seems????’. My life is dull and boring and who is to blame? 

The answer is ‘next time I point my finger, I’ll point myself to the mirror’ and sing the line following the melody of Paramore’s, ‘Playing God’.

 

YES VERY TRUE!!! I am inspired by J.K. Rowling (only the Dumbledore saying hah) and I don’t wanna think about some stupid ifs and buts. I don’t wanna be normal. I am too used to the word, normalcy. I get bored easily now and I want to know myself in and out and THE GOOD ORGANIZATION OF MYSELF is all about! Thanks Oprah for bridging me into J.K. Rowling (haha, I didn’t know J.K. Rowling until I watched the show). I want myself to tell myself that this is it! I’ve to do this. It’s never too late to know the steps to success. 

Where to start??? Until I watched Suze Orman in the next Oprah show (told ya! I watch more than one episode a day). Suze Orman is an internationally acclaimed personal finance expert and she has been approving and denying many people’s financial plans. One of the ‘contestants’ resembles me. She is not a loaded girl but she has been living her life vice versa. Her lifestyle seems like she has 8 months savings in advance. The truth is she doesn’t have any! Ouh I prefer her name to be unmentioned (I’m afraid of getting fined!) Ouh I’m still studying and two years as a student????? Ouh I am so going to have a tight budget. Suze Orman, I need you!!!! 

 Suze Orman (watch her on BBC http://www.cnbc.com/id/15838523)

So, basically, I am now financially aware and it’s important that my status as a human being is not overlooked!

‘Playing for keeps, an eye-opener I could say. It’s a film based on a true story. As I’m too lazy to map the script out, I’ll be only sharing the main issue and my opinions regarding that. The issue is racism and discrimination. In most of my years as a kid, I was always feeling betrayed and discriminated. Ouh I am too emotional, I know rightttt! 

Okay okay, my point is everyone feels the same. Let it be you are a White or a Black (referring to the US) and in Malaysia, a Chinese, an Indian or a Malay, WE ALL SOMETIMES EXPERIENCE DISCRIMINATED for our statuses, our views about the entire world or even for our fashion statements. 

I am a minority in Malay community. And many are wondering how it is possible? Because I am not rich. By this, I’m not telling that the riches do not feel differentiated. They feel too! Because they are rich! People from different statuses won’t feel like befriending with them as they are prejudiced for being cocky, arrogant and so princessy. Back to my case, I was very denying my status as a not-that-rich girl and I always wanted to own things that I could not afford. In denial, at one point, I could see my friends were in agreement that I was to be avoided. 

But slowly, as I am aging, I do believe of the fact that people, girls, guys, we are different! And please people, take the differences as positive boosters as we can. Like me, I am chubby, and I always make it the main reason of me exercising. As a result, I am kinda stable in terms of my health. I am now less asthmatic and yeay me! The ‘chubby’ effect is good, isn’t it??? 

So, for the time being, thanks a lot to the influential people.